No Longer Wicked

I am No Longer Wicked. This phrase has two meanings for me, just as the word wicked has two meanings.

1. Since the death of my daughter Lauren, I have been re-evaluating my relationship with God. I have been a Christian since I was a young adolescent. However, my relationship with God has had its ups and downs (just like any relationship one has). I think that one's love of God changes throughout one's life. For example, when Lauren was an infant in the NICU there was an incident during which her health took a turn for the worse. In fact, the code report even stated that she had died. Another mother of a child in the NICU pulled me aside and asked if she and her sister could pray for us. They prayed for Lauren, Quinn, and me in the bathroom of Hermann Hospital! When I returned to the NICU, the nurse had turned down the oxygen and ventilator settings! I could not have believed in the power of God and prayer more than I did at that time. Fast forward to Lauren's fatal car accident: to say that I had doubts about the existence of God is an understatement. It has now been just over a year since Lauren died, but I feel that my love of God is returning. I still question why my daughter died--and I am pretty sure that I will until I have the chance to ask Him in person. However, I feel that my relationship with God has matured. I want to live my life honoring God.
2. I no longer use tradtional candles. I feel that the Scentsy wickless candle system is safer than wicked candles. Did you know that there is an average of 42 home candle fires reported per day in the United States, resulting in over 15,000 home fires per year (National Fire Protection Association, NFPA)?